Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Tomorrow then update okay?
I've got too much to say,
but blogger's not co-operating with me :x
tml bahhs, I wanna sleep now :xxx
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Currently 10sept ; 1037am
Updates for 9Sept ! (:
Basically, I don't know what happened yesterday.
I woke up as early as 6am, & I didn't have a good night sleep.
The main reason was perhaps because of my hunger :x
I didn't eat any meal on 8sept ): That's bad yeaa ):
Other reason was because memories kept replaying bahs.
Went for a good breakfast with mum [:
From until we went home, to 2plus in the afternoon,
I basically don't know what I was doing !
& I call that as wasting time. T-T
Upset with myself wasting time.
& realise I've lose all the motivation to get things done.
Don't waste the other half of your day, qiuyue says. true, lools :x
so evening, I started to make salad for mummy, & the rest.
sis was cooking dinner, & zhiying came to help out.
I've got too much to say,
but blogger's not co-operating with me :x
tml bahhs, I wanna sleep now :xxx
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Currently 10sept ; 1037am
Updates for 9Sept ! (:
Basically, I don't know what happened yesterday.
I woke up as early as 6am, & I didn't have a good night sleep.
The main reason was perhaps because of my hunger :x
I didn't eat any meal on 8sept ): That's bad yeaa ):
Other reason was because memories kept replaying bahs.
Went for a good breakfast with mum [:
From until we went home, to 2plus in the afternoon,
I basically don't know what I was doing !
& I call that as wasting time. T-T
Upset with myself wasting time.
& realise I've lose all the motivation to get things done.
Don't waste the other half of your day, qiuyue says. true, lools :x
so evening, I started to make salad for mummy, & the rest.
sis was cooking dinner, & zhiying came to help out.
(Pic very dark ehhs, psps T-T)
everything was still pretty okay, until night ;
when I finally broke down in tears ):
哭了，因为这次我真的不想做！
我不想帮这个忙，但却不知道应该找谁。
自己不停的挣扎，要做还是不做?
要做，一定做得不圆满，因为知道自己没有心去做。
但不做，又不知道谁可以做，不知道怎么向他们说。
好辛苦，好像向人诉苦。但，要找谁?
不能在家里说，可能会考倒他们。
不想和朋友说，不希望因为这件事，让他们学觉得这里不好。
本来想忍住，但就在这时，twinny called ! (;
& I poured everything out in msn to twinny. But I hope twinny,
you didn't get the impression that people here are nt very good.
because fact is that they are, kind souls ! hahahhaas (:
边说边哭，好辛苦。不明白为什么自己不要做。
之前不都说好，什么事来都一定会去做的吗？
之前不都一直很香很想不断学习吗？
说出来，舒服多了! & thanks twinny !
她让我找回之前的那份喜悦；
明白我做的原因。明白后，就不会苦了。
不再觉得辛苦，反而开心。
就学习做到一百分，完完全全为的只是他们。
当你觉得厌倦时，累时，
记得想想当初为什么会开始。
Always come back to square one,
look at your initial objective.
Perhaps by this, you'll find the motivation to carry on :D
& Thanks twinny, she highlighted my initial objective.
朋友，你真的很不错！你真的很不错！
你真的真的真的真的真的很不错！:D
today?! (: misses, hope we'll see each other yea?
& yes yes, i really gt so so much to say.
you wanna be here? & listen to me? :D
shiqi-smiling :DDD @ 11:44 PM
Being flexible